When Are You Going to Take the Big Leap?
May 20, 2019
Life is but a dream....
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When are you going to take the big leap? When are you going to say yes, fully yes, from the marrow of your bones yes, to the dreams that have been tapping on your shoulder for so long?
By fully yes, I mean not a shred of hesitation. You know you’re worthy of life’s elixir. You've worked so hard to get here. You won't allow a single negative thought to stand between you and the grail you seek.
No self-sabotage. No attachment. No expectation. Only single-minded intention.
When I was really young, maybe five or six, I thought my attic was a secret portal to Disneyland. I didn’t give a fuck about physical laws. I still don’t in a way. I believe they’re more “bendable” than we’ve been taught.
I say that partly because of the miracles I've witnessed in my own life. I say it partly because I participated in a beginner level psychokinetic spoon bending workshop last year where many of us found ourselves able to soften the metal bowls of spoons with nothing but our minds, able to buckle, using our hands, what was once entirely inflexible.
It turns out Disneyland didn’t exist in my attic after all. Or maybe it did in some way. Years later, it serves as a useful metaphor as I find myself repeatedly bumping my head against the ceiling over which my dream life resides. Up there exists the fulfillment of my endeavors. But it feels safer to keep playing one floor below, for fear of exceeding my range of competence.
It’s not unlike that Marianne Williamson quote you’ve seen countless times that’s almost become cliche by now (don’t let it become cliche): “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.”
It's not entirely your fault you can’t allow yourself to experience a steady stream of joy without peppering it with miserable thoughts. Really, it isn’t.
Part of it's the thousands of years of outdated conditioning you inherited from your parents, who inherited it from their parents, and so on and so forth. As my boss puts it, it’s the “warlords and priests and tax collectors” who made human life a living hell for millennia. Yeah, you’re burning that off. So, cut yourself some slack on days when you can't let the abundance in.
We don’t yet know we don't have to struggle. We don't yet know what exists in the magic attic above our heads.
I give myself permission to feel uninterrupted joy. I give myself permission to smash through my “upper limit” into a realm of freedom, peace, truth, health, pleasure, genius, cooperation, laughter, and love.
