A Miracle Beyond Comprehension: Giving Voice to the Psychiatric Sacred

November 6, 2019

I spent years pretending my story didn't exist. I remained in the psychiatric closet. The word “schizophrenia” hung over me like a phantom I couldn’t shake off. I wouldn’t dare let people associate me with such a stigmatized title.

How could I tell people about my bizarre experiences? For years, I spoke around the edges of what was actually occurring. I was immersed in this torturous inward rollercoaster people would never be able to wrap their heads around, especially in the small northern Nevada town I was living in.

It wasn’t until 2016 that I started opening up to a few people about my story. 2016 is when I started really healing after six years of being eaten alive, cannabalized by my thoughts. I found a book called Daimonic Reality and a form of detoxification that helped me regain control of my mind. My whole world began to transform.

That year, I discovered a quote by Carl Jung that forever changed my life: “The reason for evil in the world is that people are not able to tell their stories.” It planted a seed that would germinate in early 2018 when I made this video with the help of Tweaking Reality Studios.

That is when it became clear to me, in my heart of hearts, that it was time to begin expressing this mind-bending journey I have been on. I stood in front of a microphone at Samantha Fe’s event called Ascend and bared my soul in front of dozens of people. It woke something in me that had wanted to come alive all these years, but that I had repressed for fear that it would be judged.

I decided to stop playing small. I realized there is a higher plan for my life, one that involves some self-sacrifice. Any doubt I felt initially has since vanished as there has been an outpouring of love in response to this message.

Nine years after my breakdown, I am by most accounts what society would consider a psychologically healthy human being. In many ways, I am psychologically healthier than the average person.

I no longer see things in black and white. I no longer take life, having a functioning mind, for granted. I no longer am able to hide my story, this thing that is so central to my existence.

Now I see that the world needs it, needs whatever will help remove some of the toxic cultural narratives we were imprinted with from the starts of our lives.

What is YOUR story? Have you encountered the psychiatric sacred? If so, we’d love to hear about it in The Sacredphrenia Tribe, the free Facebook group I’ve created for these X-Men and Women who have been pushed to the edges of our society. No longer will we pretend the current state of affairs is tolerable. No longer will we be written off.

Visit https://www.facebook.com/groups/thesacredphreniatribe/ if you would like to join in on this massively consequential conversation. ✊🏻✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿✊